the key to change is to let go of fear.

Posted in life stories on 6June2008 by jod

im leaving you.

well, if you might think of following, you can just click the link.

http://gozumtalks.livejournal.com

there are two levers for moving men: interest oand fear.

Posted in life stories on 4June2008 by jod

i am losing interest in this blog.

it is not who i am anymore. and more often than not, i face the pressure of creating a somewhat decent entry. as much as i wanted to be a bit different, it is just not who i am.

now, i must do something before i finally decide to put a stop to all this writing.

remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one.

Posted in life stories on 3June2008 by jod

i am almost done with enrollment. with one subject to go, i can’t wait to get this academic year started.

this is how it is in UP. enrollment pa lang, pinahihirapan ka na. but when you get to the classes themselves, it was all worth it.

My Expectations:

the fourth installment of college life comes with more responsibilities. thus, provides more avenue of proving myself worthy of being called an iskolar ng bayan not only in the academe but also in other aspects that makes up a well-rounded individual.

these responsibilities will help test my new priorities. and, as i progress, these priorities will eventually surface and help define me as a person.

also, i expect a lot of trouble coming my way. school does not mean you wake up, take a bath, go to school, go home then sleep. it is a lot more than that. aside from school, we also have different commitments to different people. if ever i do not take my time management abilities to a higher level, i might be in for a lot of surprises.

i like everything planned. so, i guess i would be more organized this year than the preceding ones. i don’t want to go through all the things i’ve been to last year.

What is Expected of Me:

i am expected to be a good student, son and citizen. haha.

these may not be verbally stated but very much implied inside the house.

as i expect more responsibilities i will be eventually turned into a good student. a better outlook and list of priorities will help me be the student i once was. nerdy, yes. but not delinquent.

also, being able to reach the second decade of my life here on earth. i am also expected to be a more responsible adult. help with household chores. yada-yada-yada.

i cant help but be a good example to my younger cousins and prove to be worth of such role.

i am afraid to show you who i really am, because if i show you who i really am, you might not like it–and that’s all i got.

Posted in life stories on 31May2008 by jod

today, my world fell apart. today, i worked on my own.

the little spark of hope i had suddenly died.

i do not know whom to turn to anymore nor whom to trust.

it was when you were ready to open up that the world decides to close its doors on you.

i know it may sound a bit harsh and that there will always be hope. but, hey, let us be in touch with reality that everybody feels so down every now and then.

all i knew it started out perfectly fine for a summer morning. the weather excites some neurochemicals in the brain that would lead to some weather-related psychological effect. it was either that or something i felt that ruined the day.
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why is it that when you are ready to risk something you want to risk into that is when opportunities suddenly disappear.

did i take too long?

was it wrong for me to make sure i wouldnt do anything embarrassing?

was it wrong for me to make sure i wouldnt be hurt?
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well, with what happened today, i really was hurt. and it was not even my fault i was hurt.
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i do not know what to believe in.

nor, whom to believe in.

this was taken from my old blog. however, i feel the same today. such reminiscent thoughts clogged my mind. i am still this person who talks. right now, i might have more confidence. more self-esteem. but, still inside the shell.

all media exist to invest our lives with artificial perceptions and arbitrary values

Posted in life stories on 29May2008 by jod

okay!

let’s lighten things up and play a game.

i’ll be posting a number of lines from my favorite movies. the one who have the most number of correct guesses wins. i still don’t know the prize yet. or maybe ill create an entry about him/her. or he/she can freely ask me any question and make a whole entry about it. either way, im good.

you can answer through comments. haha. wala na palang ibang way. anyway, please answer in complete movie titles. okie?

correctly answered quotes will bear the correct answer after them. it will be colored red and big. haha.

on saturday, if half of the number of quotes isnt correctly guessed, ill try to put clues. okie?

the quotes are from IMDb. i should not have said that. so, please dont cheat and go to the site and search for the quotes. i will know – not! haha. basta, cheating is bad! i will ban you from the internet. *evil laugh*

let the games begin!

1. Tell me, how does my mother, or any person for that matter, go into a parent/teacher conference and come out with a date?

The Princess Diaries by Jmar

2. Guys, a woman’s purse, alright, it’s her secret source of power. Alright? There are many dark and dangerous things in there, that we, the male species, should know nothing about.

How To Lose a Guy in 10 Days by Daniel

3. You can’t stop my happiness, ‘cuz I like the way I am. And you just can’t stop my knife and fork when I see a Christmas ham! And if you don’t like the way I look, then I just don’t give a damn!

4. He is the cheese to my macaroni. And, I know that people are supposed to fall in love before they reproduce, but… I guess normalcy isn’t really our style.

5. I want to see the look on that man’s face when his gold is gone. He took my father from me, I’m taking this.

6. The moment you set foot on that casino floor, they’ll be watching you like hawks. Hawks with video cameras.

7. The French have said au revoir to the franc, the Germans have said auf wiedersehen to the mark, and the Portuguese have said… whatever to their thing.

8. Baby, save it for Oprah. This is a brand-new day ladies and gentlemen. A brand-new day. We’re gonna start with respect. You’re gonna respect me and I’m gonna respect you.

9. Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, useless and disappointing. *give-away*

A Cinderella Story by Patag

10. I wonder if my opponent is basing her opinion on the Prince’s politics or how cute she thinks his butt is?

11. Ok, here’s the deal. I have a hangover. Who knows what that means?

The School of Rock by Patag

12. This is the kind of distraction i was trying to avoid. *give-away*

13. You’ve slayed dragons. If you can’t get a date, who can?

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by Patag

14. Son, if that’s ain’t Jesus calling, shut it off.

15. Jimmy want a rib! Jimmy want a steak! Jimmy want piece of yo chocolate cake!

Dreamgirls by Jmar

16. I don’t know if we each have a destiny, or if we’re all just floatin’ around accidental-like on a breeze. But I, I think maybe it’s both.

yan. GO! hula na!

leading the tally board is:

Patag – 3

Jmar – 2

Daniel – 1

housework is something you do that nobody notices until you don’t do it

Posted in life stories on 29May2008 by jod

the moment i opened my eyes, my brain told me to get up and make some lame excuse to get out of the house. i have been quarantined inside this house for almost two weeks. and, by the end of the first week, i was having this unknown sickness.

i thought that maybe it is nice to go out for a change. to leave this house and do nothing for a day. for the last month, this house is being repainted. and, the final touches are on their way. today, i didnt want to hold a paintbrush, have paint stains on my body and bath with thinner in the afternoon.

however, i cannot think of some reason to go out. and, i dont know where to go either.

so, trapped again inside this building, i decided to continue with the painting.

everybody knows that i am not skilled when it comes to household chores. the only chore i like doing is to wash the dishes. i do not like sweeping the floor because the sweep is too short and it gives me back aches. i do not like dusting because i do not like dust, in general. i do not like mopping because i feel like Cinderella. in short, when it comes to the household, i am very lazy.

but, not with painting. last week was the first compliment i got for doing a household chore. they said i do not waste paint. or i am a thrifty painter.

that was the first and the last compliment i ever heard. after that, i was so lazy in doing this and doing that.

anyway, today, i decided to paint my door. i didnt want it to be just plain black. so, i figured to do this art ive been doing since high school.

i can’t show it to you now. you can come by the house later and ill show it to you. hah.😀

no matter how i try, i guess i am not a born cleaner. i am a natural at painting, though.

so now, until enrollment, i guess i would be staying inside the house and finish this up. i am going to help so as not to extend this painting session until classes start. that would be a whole lot of hassle for me.

i wish everyday was painting day.🙂

those who get lost on the way to school will never find their way through life.

Posted in life stories on 28May2008 by jod

the first semester of my fourth year in college is just around the corner.

everybody is so excited once the CRS (computerized registration system) results are out. as much as possible, each would pray that he/she would get the full 18 units in CRS so as not to wait in line during enrollment to get their needed classes.

i, for one, am lucky to have enlisted in those full 18 units. and, if you have experience with CRS you will definitely say that i am very lucky.

to see a clearer version, right click the picture then click “view image”. voila!

dont be overwhlemed by the number of letters in the subject. the last three letters are the sections. TH means that the class is held every Tuesday and Thursday while the WF ones are on Wednesday and Friday. the last letter tells you the time slot. every letter corresponds to a different time slot. these letters starts with Q for the 7-830am classes then R for the 830-10am classes and so on.

however, i do not think i am ready for school to open, yet. i haven’t been able to enjoy vacation and i have not been to somewhere i’ve never been to before.

but, the fact that i was not the student once was, i wanted to take revenge. and, i want to start it as early as i can. i mean, i dont want to be the same as i was in third year. i now that i havent been studying that hard. and now, i want to do the opposite.