a real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

in my life, i think i have encountered as much as 11,000 people. haha. not bad, ey?

and, these people, they would introduce to me their best friends, for some reason.

tonight, as i sit on the fx and having my face bombarded with cold air, i thought of this person called the best friend.

i never had a best friend. nor did i consider a friend the best i ever had. or maybe, i just don’t know how and when to pick one. or what criteria should a best friend satisfy.

i’ve interviewed a random number of people from my ym list and their answers are:

1. taong mapagsasabihan ko ng sikreto ko
2. laging andyan
3. kilala ako
4. sa kanya mo sinasabi ang lahat
5. mahihingahan
6. kayo through thick and thin
7. mas importante sa bf/gf mo

looking at the list, even though it is short, not one person came into my mind. sure, if there is somebody that is fit for such title, he/she should run through your mind the moment you read the list.

what could be the problem with me?

i have been living my life in solitude for a couple of years now.  what i mean is that i  have been thinking that i don’t need others to share my problems with. i don’t need to tell my secrets to other people. i don’t really have to share with them my past and my life.

i never wanted a best friend. or it did not cross my mind that i needed one.

what do i need a best friend for? and why should you pinpoint whom you think is your best friend?

it isn’t life’s requirement to have a best friend. although, there are certain perks in having one. you would be having an all-around person who’ll be there for you in trouble. you’ll have an additional shoulder to cry on. you’ll have a 24/7 adviser. and more things that can be to your advantage.

no matter how good this kind of offer sounds, it does not really seem to entice me.

nowadays, i feel like standing on my own takes it’s toll on me. i am currently in need of someone standing by me. i have been carrying all of these weight ever since and i think it is better that i share it with somebody who would want to share it with me.

but, as everything in this world is, it’s not easy to do.