i am afraid to show you who i really am, because if i show you who i really am, you might not like it–and that’s all i got.

today, my world fell apart. today, i worked on my own.

the little spark of hope i had suddenly died.

i do not know whom to turn to anymore nor whom to trust.

it was when you were ready to open up that the world decides to close its doors on you.

i know it may sound a bit harsh and that there will always be hope. but, hey, let us be in touch with reality that everybody feels so down every now and then.

all i knew it started out perfectly fine for a summer morning. the weather excites some neurochemicals in the brain that would lead to some weather-related psychological effect. it was either that or something i felt that ruined the day.
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why is it that when you are ready to risk something you want to risk into that is when opportunities suddenly disappear.

did i take too long?

was it wrong for me to make sure i wouldnt do anything embarrassing?

was it wrong for me to make sure i wouldnt be hurt?
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well, with what happened today, i really was hurt. and it was not even my fault i was hurt.
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i do not know what to believe in.

nor, whom to believe in.

this was taken from my old blog. however, i feel the same today. such reminiscent thoughts clogged my mind. i am still this person who talks. right now, i might have more confidence. more self-esteem. but, still inside the shell.

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3 Responses to “i am afraid to show you who i really am, because if i show you who i really am, you might not like it–and that’s all i got.”

  1. I sort of feel the same. I feel your pain! Hehe!

    Cheer up! 😀

  2. well on the title, you shouldn’t mask the real you for somebody. if that somebody does not accept you for who you really are then they are not worth knowing you!

    maybe the heat has taken its toll on you? jk.

    i know how you feel, every once in a while we all feel so low that we feel so insignificant. maybe you need to take a breather, broaden your perspectives.

  3. before, i feel that too. yeah, very often. before yun ha.. I hope that ull be able to find the nitch to show the true you. take chances, cause sometimes, not taking a risk is an even bigger risk.

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